Haha, funny how little things make me excited anymore. But I'm just glad someone took the time to read my words, and especially that it is none other than Jaimi, the girl who inspired me not only to blog, but to better myself in many ways. I know that sounds crazy, since I have never even met her and only spoken to her online, but in my world, I believe you can touch people's lives without ever seeing their face or hearing their laugh. I'll get off my soapbox about her, but I believe in good people, and I know she is one of them :) So Jaimi, thanks for taking the time to believe in me as well (and for reading my blog, too!) It's funny..when I was younger, I had a penpal in Ireland. I used to get so excited to receive her letters in the mail and have a friend out there in the world. To me, that's how I think of the people I talk to online. They're my "friends," even if we've never met face to face. I genuinely enjoy hearing from her and it makes me happy to know someone besides myself reads this!
And so it's Thursday. I felt kind of bad last night, because even though I walked at this gorgeous park with Mom, I came home and we had Saladworks for dinner. I went on their website and created my own salad (sampling different dressings to see which had the least amount of calories that I would actually ENJOY..I miss parmesan peppercorn, lol) and it was a lot. I did cheese, pepperoni, walnuts, whole wheat pasta, lettuce, cucumbers and egg (no croutons, which was hard for me but I did have a whole wheat roll) and LITE buttermilk ranch. Sorry guys, I just could not do the fat free balsamic. I CRAVE creamy dressings, it's my downfall. I wanted apple slices on it too, but the guy forgot them, oh well. I know it was a high calorie meal, and I was still done eating by 8 p.m. for the night...but, i cheated and had my last red velvet cake Godiva truffle :-/ oopsie! I needed something sweet. That's my biggest problem..I can be SO full from a meal and still have the room in my stomach to have dessert. It's like I save space for it (or have a separate compartment for it, like I always used to say). So I indulged, if only to get rid of the temptation since the box is now gone. But when I do that, it makes me feel bad about myself the next day, even if the scale stayed the same. I didn't want to weigh myself, but part of me wanted to know the damage I did. I guess it's a good thing I didn't gain, but I also didn't lose any, which is where my problem lies. I am maintaining my weight doing what I've been doing. I need to ramp up my will to exercise or else I'll stay stagnant!
Anyone have any recommendations for what to do with my hair to keep it from getting extra sweaty and end up curling? I know this sounds like a silly problem, but I have long (curly) hair. It takes me 30 mins. to straighten it, and if I sweat or it's humid, it will curl and undo all the work it took to make it straight! I know this is a lame excuse, but I think that has always been a reason I haven't worked out. Hey, at least I'm being honest! Do they make any kind of sweat-resistant headbands or are there any ideas out there for how to keep my hair straight while doing a workout? Leave it to me to ask the silly questions....
I feel like so many thoughts go through my head as I write this. It really makes me think of my body and physical appearance. I know I mentioned needing a haircut, and I need to find a salon I really love and dont get anxiety about going to. I know it's just hair, but i always worry the stylist wont get what I want or do it properly...so I tend to bounce from place to place. But that's on my list to take care of. I need a good trim!
And reading Jaimi's tanning stuff, it makes me REALLY want to go tanning! I miss how tan I used to be from doing that each year. I think something happened to my skin though, and i don't get as dark as I used to. And that one year, I got "tanning spots" all over my torso so I think that started making me not want to go. But I don't get really tan from the natural sun anymore (I get more red!) Not to mention, due to working all week, I don't really get to sit out in the sun for long periods of time, unless I have a beach day, etc. And since I'm not exposed on a daily basis, I burn. It's a lose-lose situation, haha. I know they say to stay out of the sun altogether, but it makes you feel so much prettier with a tan, right? and skinnier in some way ;) I guess I'll think about it. I have a wedding on March 30th that I'd love to have some color for, but I'd have to start tanning soon if I wanted that. I also dont know that I have the money for it right now..womp womp. And I don't know about your tanning salons, but mine always make you sign up for 3 months, and then they automatically charge your card for another 3 if you dont cancel by a certain date. And you have to go and cancel in person. It's annoying. Not to mention all the girls who work there are super thin, tan and pretty and it makes me self-concious going in there...
I've been REALLY trying to moisturize my skin lately, too. It's been extra dry due to the winter air and having the heat on. I purchased a nighttime moisturizer and it feels nice and light when I put it on (which is good for my stupid sensitive skin) but i feel like my skin just soaks it right up and is dry again by morning. Sometimes I wish I had really pretty skin and could go natural everyday, without having to put makeup on. But sadly, I don't and make-up helps me to feel prettier. But I know it's not good for my skin issues..
So that's hair and skin, but I also want to purchase some teeth-whitening strips. Anyone have any they recommend?
I guess this entry has just been me talking and talking with no real point but oh well. It's help time pass and I'm extra bored here at work. And it's so gorgeous out, I wish I was outside! It's only going to be in the 40s this weekend supposedly, but that's ok. I'll be indoors with Mom seeing the Dinosaur exhibit at the Philadelphia Franklin Institute! I love their exhibits and getting to see some of the museums in the city.
Goals for the weekend/next week:
1) work out more than I did this week
2) clean out SOME of my overflowing closets! Baby steps
3)update my resume/decide what I want to do with my life/career
4) I REALLY need to do the update on my iPhone. It keeps telling me I don't have enough memory on my laptop to perform it but I barely have anything on there, so I've avoided it. Time to suck it up and take care of business!
I'm sure I'll be back later :)